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M.N. (16 yr.) Novi Sad With 14 years started with the grass and alcohol. Continued with the escape from home and school. Continued with dealing of trodon when I first arrested. Then I had 15 years. To me it is not quiet, I continued with dealing and use marijuana. Too quickly came and Nails and speed. I tried cocaine a few times, and I am a heroin. Parents have divorced, so I stayed in a little Mame and stepfather, a little at grandma and grandfather. My stay with my grandfather and grandma had fit to my behavior, because with them I had no control, and in their villages all I could to do whatever I want. Parents were then understand what I do and tried to help me by taking two times a week in Belgrade in the center for the prevention of drug addiction (C.P.N.) I did not want to go there, I run and then I first tried heroin. This treatment had no success, because after a month in Psychological I am back in Novi Sad and continue by the old. One morning they woke me my early, pack in the car and brought to Camp Black River in Ribaric, and is the only way to place me somewhere because I did not want any accident to agree to do so. I thought that I will stay until the beginning of the school, two months but then I came and visit, and in agreement with them, I decided to stay as I need. Previous attempt of my healing is short lasted and derive to the story of a psychologist, that didn't touch me at all. This month is for me looked like forever. Here is much better. Not boring to me, something I do in your free time there is a basket, billiards, a movie, computer. Of the lectures are trying to us not only heal but also close to the faith and the Lord. M.O. (34 years) Valjevo My problems with drugs started 16 years ago. After two years of active Sports, after a little more difficult injury stops training and soon after, as I had a lot of free time often remain on the street. This of course could not learn anything smart. A control I had, because I lived with grandma and grandfather. Then comes alcohol and marijuana. Often with the older guys go to the game and soon there heroin. The first time 18. Upon arriving in the military is already serious. These are the years of war, pills and heroin was everywhere, not something you should be a lot of money to buy it. With 22, so called speeds cocaine, trips. Later Nails. And the speed we just did not fit so I returned to heroin. Of course it is always in my head that was dripping a lot, and that should stop soon with the team. With 26 I get married and get daughter and this is one serious reason why I should all stop. But, no chance. I didn't managed to resist. I did nonsenses. Steal, cheated, plunder, only to have it. I destroyed all around me. All people who have wanted to help me I was forcing from myself to and the saw only enemies in them. One attempt of withdraw lasted two days. No chance to do so at home. Then I gave up. Divorce after 4 years of marriage, my feelings toward your child are faded. Mother and brother who is also slow for me stalling not even seen. I never even tried to heal. For the hospital, I heard from others that there is little better than on the street. Get million of medicines and psychologist washes the brain from making you zombie. I'm often heard the story of people who went there. Can say that I was totally surrendered to him. Next two years were a real hell. More in crisis than "normal", without anyone, and it was a question of the day when it gonna finish. In a basement, channel, jail... One evening I was in the house, not well, all the pain, mentally separate, accidently on a TV program saw article of Ceter Black River. I saw that some people that I knew from my city. Something I have heard of it, but I was not interested. After the broadcast I thought long about the only chance may be. Soon after that, find the contact phone and already after two, three days go to one of their departments. Start very difficult, crisis, pain, head. All the pulling to one more defeat, to give up. But here is not at home, people that live now know how to help you, what sneaker head, most of the same past. Frequent walks and talks have helped to Wednesday and this time I do something properly. Maybe for the first time in life. Gradual introduction to the essence of our problems, talks to priests, associates understand that I have is my understanding of the Orthodox faith was totally wrong. Without blessing, obaying, sincere confession, fast, Eucharist there is no normal life for me. Me that I am the entire life worked what I wanted this was crystal clear. Neither one thing in life I'm not done properly. And now, when we put a question "and what is still" the answer is simple: I am gonna try hard to live by the blessing of father, I think that it is only right solution. I sincerely believe in it. I am two years. Some confidence is gained, helps associates work with new fellows. And not only that. My relationships with family and daughter that has 8 years were never better. Sincerely believe in that and will continue .... And when will the house, the question is that we often set. The answer is simple, this is my house ... M.Đ. (25 years) Kraljevo Drugs I started to use 16 years. In the beginning it was the grass, drugs and alcohol. Due to frequent use of drugs, allday trainspoting in the streets of the city often and I absences from school after which I was soon dropped from the school. As a young man I have long dealt with water polo and had very noticeable results in the sport, as well as with the school for negligence, absence and preoccupation of other things soon, I stopped training. From that moment I had too much free time, I spent it on the street and there was not hard to get to alcohol, marijuana, and then started the madness that is slowly take out of control. In the end, then, the horse and with him a lot of problems. Heroin I started to use with the 17-18 yr. and since then I have constantly consumed. Due to the lack of money and increasing needs, often I was forced to steal, fraud, or create a robbery that I had problems with the law. Non-appearance on the house, many lies, poor physical appearance and mental state have contributed to the doubt and tuck between my parents. Due to the large pressure at one time I admitted to using drugs, difficult but very aware of the problems met with and offered me any kind of help. Sister, which is all the time to know my problem, but because of weakness could not nothing to do, in the meantime found out of place which is called the Black River. After talks with my parents I voluntarily decided to go to treatment and if I'm first trying to solve the problems I have but that I had success because the problem was really serious. Start in the center and each start was very difficult, but with the help of people who have worked with us with a lot of trouble and I have overcome this problem. Frequently lectures, interviews with priests, regular worship me said that thinking in the right direction. In the center, I have two years. Helps associates work with new protégés and work as a driver. In her spare time, read by a book, see a movie and do the sports (basket, football table tennis, billiards). Once in two months I am leaving for a weekend. In discussions with his family turn the question of when will be ready to go back and continue to live normally ... ... I concluded that without the blessed, elementary church life, confession and Holy Eucharist will be able to normally hard to live with, it is still located in the heart and being there as long as should be ... D.S. (32god) Majdanpek Drugs I started to use 16 years. Beginning of marijuana and various pills. At that time I lived with grandma and grandpa. I had all the freedom, no one could control me. All the more time I spent on the street, it is all out. Alcohol, drugs, glue, bronze have been interesting, but is attracted to me. With 20 years with attempted first heron. Then they went and all the problems. Lies, fraud, theft, selling things from home, conflict with law. That life took me 6 years in prison. By leaving nothing changed, I continued the old. Of course, more and more I'm tone. In the meantime, I was in the army, Drajzerovoj, Kovin and nothing we did not help to stop drug use. Finally, the doctors and methadone therapy are destroyed by the end of me. Then I was a doctor and said the Black River. More we were wandering through the head by the hospital, with doctors and strike me Black river at the time was the only bright point, the hope that something changes. Start was difficult as well as others. With professional treatment, and effort will I have successfully overcome this period. Fresh air, isolation, nature, going to worship, regular diet, up to the time, work habits contribute to further this time do not give up and make something of themselves. With the help and support people who were responsible for us and talks with the priests, I realized that there is a large chance that the fast, confessions, communions, obaying for the first time, make something of myself. I am in charge of the work, and take care about the guys who are on therapy. In the center, I am 26 months, I do not know how long I will stay for the first time in life I realized that I do not need to make decisions as I do now. I am gonna let clergymen to decide on because by the blessing of life is the only way to rescue me from problems. D.K. (48) Sarajevo I was born on 29.02.1960. god. in Sarajevo. The first time I took heroin with a 19 yr. Before that went by the established template Artan, hash, grass, and when I tried on heroin has become an integral part of my life, and everything else was secondary. I had a decent job in the UNIS-in. I worked in finance and lives as only parents to 27 years. Then I get home. All the time I was on the tipple: heroin, methadone, morphine, opium and all possible pharmaceuticals. I came in contact with the law for breaking Pharmacy, theft and possession of drugs. Many times I was on the treatment of which in Belgrade by all possible clinics from which I came without quality abstinence. The war in Bosnia catch me and remain in the madness three and a half years. In this period, only getting a real addict and come to the situation when the total madness went by drugs in other parts of the city to which you countless times to lose head. During the war of drugs was in abundance. Enough that only now out of the area and we realize validity in what I war and addicts madness I get. Welcomed the end of the war as refugees. My agony continues by Belgrade, Pale, Eastern Sarajevo. To reach the most money to steal a car, dispersal counterfeit and get up 3 months. Out again by finishing in Drajzerovoj - Bg. 2000 god. return to Sarajevo sell your apartment, and more getting a hopeless case. When I spent the money comes to the clinic for anti-addiction in Sarajevo where his methadone therapy and go to Reto Center in Zagreb. Stay 3 days, back in Sarajevo, and continues under the old. Somehow agree to the methadone maintenance that will stay two years. Doctors motivate me to try again with the community and go to Marjanovac, staying there 8 months. Arbitrary left and continue under the old two years. Thanks to doctors and a friend who is a former drug addicts after Ćenakola where he was 2 years but 10 years apstinated on the site found Center Black River. Contact, am withdrawing from the methadone, speed, nails, apaurina and in September 2007 have come to the center of Black River. I'm overcome the crisis with the help of older guys and their experience neopijatske treatment which lasted 10 days. After one month I go to another camp in Loznica, a village maid, and there is already 17 months. Now I have the fifth weekend home. I know that most interested us what to me is here. Could still write a lot, but they remained rare. Menu is the most important to another, except my parents care about me, but with the difference that their attention was warped, and here we are offered is a true Christian. Do not be mistaken, in the camps has us all in the confession and atheist. Just living here by the father Branislav learn to become men and to each of us to become the man in all his beauty. Learning to true and honest repented, offers us a substitute for drugs, and to the learning of Christ. Often think when I see us as small children in one hand hold the knife with which to play and when someone wants to take it that it is not hurting me, it does not give until you give us something on the other hand, something interesting than knife, and for me - If this is not the God I do not know what is, because I tried all possible. I'm here just because they learn to come to Him and to love Him more than drugs. It is not easy, because I can not help myself. We only remains to pray to God with His help save ............................ Dule My name is Nenad and I am dependent of heroin, but 5 years. I am currently in the center for treatment of drug addiction Black River, center Cikota. Heroin evil I met to study and I use it intravenously. And all evil. I had covered my pain, and for the money I sneak in all possible ways. By taking heroin I lost all touch with real life, and just fought for each of the following "work". Of course I lied to steal and I came to him through the necessary money, even stay in prison is not opametio me or give insight to my problem. I said, I very self: "I am withdrawing!" But when I came to the center I was walking tragedy full of arrogance and self. In the Center, after a time, you see who you are and what you have been out. With the spiritual leadership of selected people and real access problem and realize that for me is safety. Occupational therapy was created to give you work habits, be it human in you, and that there is no need to constantly something hidding. I would reccomend like anyone who is in the same issue to try to resolve the problem in that the access center, because the time spent here is a guarantee for the normal flow of life and investigation in to how this is a big problem. Certainly is that the required longer period of time and the maximum effort to reach the healing. I plan to finish the Faculty after the therapy and find appropriate work, not to write in the temptations of the problems overtaken me, that with the help of friends that I have made here and their families live a plain life. My name is Bane. Now I have 31 years old, a heroin I first tried their 15 years of age. Since then, with interruptions, take heroin to 03.04.2008 when I came to the treatment. In addition to heroin, I used marijuana, ecstasy, speed, cocaine, various drugs, etc.. Heroin I used to all ways, sneezing longest. Basically I was working all the time enjoying the drugs, which provides me such life in the beginning. Eventually, when I started to enjoy greater quantities, and I started to resell, steal, various combination and brought myself to the first meeting of police and court, and later the prison. In PMDRC Black River I 10 months and I think it mostly all the best. Since I lived abnormal life while I drugs, the transition to possibly normal environment is created difficulties in the beginning of therapy. Adaptation period lasted two months, with a period of physical works of apstinenciial crisis. After two months of the better I felt, I remember how to be normal. From month to month, I felt all better and better, both on the physical and the mental plan. Since this is a center of Orthodox Liturgy and services are coming to me as medicine for the soul, which was infested virus which is called the self, egoism, anger, greed ... Center has enabled me to be spiritual uzdignem. In addition to lectures, library, prayer, fasting, confessioning, I changed the spiritual change in a positive sense. Only here I have become aware of what I have unrealistic thoughts and understanding had in my previous life. I can only be grateful to the man that all this created and organized. At this time, and from this perspective I think that when you finish with rehabilitaciom, all should accept the reality and calm, the rest will get it. My name is V. Filipović. I am dependent of heroin eight years of which 5 years. I started with marijuana in the primary school after which I have taken tablets, alcohol, ecstasy, cocaine, etc.. Heroin I have get in the beginning of the money that I earned a variety of jobs. After that I could do, and then I started to steal, sell things and in the end I sold heroin. When I came to the stadium that I can not be done, ie. increased my tolerance, I addressed the family to help me, because I feel that I have one foot in the grave. My sister said that there is rehabilitation center with work and spiritual therapy Crna Reka. In the beginning I was unsure, so I tried to off myself, but unsuccessfully. After a month I came to the center. In the center, I am nine and a half months. I went on the weekend, the house, and I noticed to be changed a lot. I am calmer and cultured, respect some things that I didnt noticed when I used drugs. My impression of the previous stay in the center is satisfactory. I plan to stay more to stabilize. Positive influence on me working and spiritual therapy. When I finish the therapy that will last a year and a half to two years, I plan to not return for some time in my city. I will go to some other environment to live and work, try to meet some normal girl because last years female company were only drug addicts. This center can give you good base for future life, because you are learning good habits, you get up workable and spiritually, and what is most important, you start after long time in your life to be responsible for your acts. |
